pretty sister with the love of life

Hi dear mops.
i read your message and could see you there. i can feel your pain; know that only you can love what you hold in your soul. i know sharing it brings you great pleasure; it is a beautiful thing about you. when heather does not see it, it reflects her more than you. despite how at the moment you feel. and at times alcohol and good cheese is just what feels right. though it can deepen the momentary pain.
What i see in you is inner and outer beauty. and, honestly, shell; i think this weight watchers and improving our physical health is one huge thing (ignore the pun) we can do. i ?? whether that in and of itself will not bring us to a place of greater peace and thought. and currently i am focusing on mostly that. you were able to feel the ocean air, the oxygen in your body as you pumped the peddles of the bike. heather was a fool to waste it... all you can do is offer the amazing opportunity for serenity. that you are finding .
I have rededicated to 3 things: breathing deeply, moving my body, and eating with points. i can only seem to stay commited for a couple months. but i figure if on the third mo i fuck up a bit, i may need it to refocus again. must be my rebellious nature. i have found doing turbo jam 45 min every day; and yoga most days, i eat much better. it works for me now. but who knows in a couple mos. oh, and i love a few things. medjool dates, organic caramel corn rice cakes, big ass bagels with honey walnut cream cheese every am --but only 1/2. so, with my favorites i guess i am on for awhile.
I ABSOLUTELY CAN NOT WAIT TO SEE YOU. I AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS UNTIL THURSDAY.... I WILL GO LISTEN TO THE SONG ASAP. ONLY 2 NURSES HERE AND ONE IS A FUCKING LITTLE ANNOYING WOMAN WHO WILL NOT SHUT UP. MY COWORKER ON DAYS DOES A NICE LITTLE DANCE AND VOICE OF HER.
TAKE CARE. I LOVE YOU. TWIGGY