Damn ... i lost all the great things i was writing. stupid computer. let me try again. i hate when i am wise and lose the words to a machine. food. i was talking of how the taste of indian is so delicious and worth the consuming. for me, it is italian i was craving and the 6in. lasagna i had at lunch was more worth remembering not to have again soon. and how we sometimes do things to maybe prove to our little friend who resides in our head that maybe we can't do this, reach a goal; or stay under 200; or go further. or wear the next smaller size jeans sitting alone on the dresser catching dust as the scale goes up, then down.....
i just remember when i was making my big change in life and moving out, julie --a friend of mine from wisconsin said move. if nothing changes , nothing changes. right now as we move along this journey together, i feel and believe if something changes, something changes. do what you need to for the next few days; next few hours to see the change you want to be. it is within us both.
i have come to realize i cannot have all i want. after my nap, i was going to have a beer. i figured i will get lazy then, and sit around, probably eat more. as i have increased 4 pounds this week in a mere 5 days. a beer seemed a fool idea because of where it would take me. i think of you, of us. and i want more than a beer can give to me. so here i am writing to you .. i love and believe in you. in me. i guess i will go home and clean on this rainy day. i can always pick up a book instead of food... i really am now trying to focus on a specific goal. getting to the 60's . the 60's were a time of change in our history, so maybe it will be a time of change for me. for you, the 80's were a time of good music, right???? what are you doing in your mind and action after the scale, and some nummy indian. you are lucky you have nummy indian. although we have a kick butt place here you and i went to. i wish i had gone there today instead. i can only go out 2 times a month. as is too much moolah.
sorry so long. you keep on going. i am no longer running behind the wagon as you are rolling away. you have reached out and pulled me in. let's see where it will take 2 cool , crazy, sexy women. i love you. hang in there; i have my arms around you. it may be a bumpy ride. love twigs.