good to see your voice

hey twigs, it is such a nice way to start my work morn to read your words...and it is up and down but we keep going...i have been back at the gym slowly...only 2-3 times per week and only light workouts; mostly stretching back and working on core...the slowness of it is not my preference but i am grateful to not be in pain. i made the mistake of hopping on the gym scale this morn and am trying to not let it derail me...it was over 200 again and it made me so sad. while i am so happy about the 100's, I often feel frightened as to if i can keep it off or no.... so many times we have worked so hard only to slide back down the shitty hill of fat...anyway, this time i am placing little anchors all along the hill and dammit, i may slip but i will cling onto the little rung as hard and as fast as i can till i am strong enough to begin climbing and losing again. it is good to see your face along side me on the hill as sometimes it is a scary and lonely place. i love you and i believe in your ability to find the little rungs too. hold on baby
luvmops