eating large in the flatlands

Hi Dear twigs,
Once again I am eating all in sight during and after my trip to the flatlands...maybe that is the answer for me right there...I can't seem to calm down or turn around my eating. I am not sleeping well. We went last night to look at a possible wedding location at Tilden Park, which is where I love to hike ( it is a park next to Redwood and very near Sassan's house)...so Kell and Sassan met us, we all like it, it was a very pretty old stone structure in the hills...then we went out for Thai, but still I could not stop thinking about the near future and what choice to make...I wish there was a way to know what is best w/out agonizing so much. How are you? miss you, and not hanging onto my 40 very well...my jeans are tight today and I am sad.
luvmops