where is my bay?

i still miss it so much...how do I find my way? can anyone help me?

what a sad message

Hi my dearest friend and sister,
my heart is crying for you as i read your message. i am working at 5 am and took a peek to see if you had words to say. it is not fair to lose so much of yourself to that place. they don't deserve the best of you. it is yours and only yours. tim is the love of your life. downsize it all to save what you have fought so hard for. live cheap and have tim do the same. the place can be made your own.
You are too remarkable a person to be eaten up by minnesota and what it represents. what can i do for you to help you in this desperate state??? i love you so. twiggy.

What have I done?

OH my dear sis, I am so miserable...I hate it here so much. I do not want why I deluded myself into thinking I could handle this for 18 months. It does not look like T is going to find anything here...it is like the joke is on me...you crawl out of a hole of debt and then make a massive mistake that either keeps you utterly depressed or sets you back severely financially...I am officially hating myself every day by eating till it hurts, or the hurt ends, or the hurt begins, I don't know anymore...i only know a small part of me dies each day that I stay in this ivory tower.